So much for blogging everyday!!!!

Well….since I last wrote…I ventured a little way out of Goodooga to a sheep station called Red Plains…spent the night there meeting some of dads family..was a wonderful time.
The next day we headed to Coonabarabran, where I met a lady I have been Facebook friends with for a year…a fellow ex defence member, raised her kiddies alone and a fellow adventurer and tough cookie…we got on really well!!!!! Spent the night there and then the next morning she took us to some sandstone caves just out of town…what a spiritual and magical place!!!! I could see faces in the stone from days long gone…incredible.
We left there and headed north…thinking we would pull up somewhere for at least one more night…but I decided with dad that we could just go home….it was only 700km after all…so we did….I think I am still tired…ahahhahahah…Have a few things to tweak in the van before I head off again….so exciting…
….since I have been home…I have seen a Kayak business in sydney with Lifewear gear custom made for them…from my connection design .What a thrill!!! Obviously I don’t make any money from this….Lifewear purchased the copyright for 2yrs, so all they make is theirs. Just proud to see my design up in a shop!!! Also talking future collaborations with this business in an exclusive manner…see what happens there!!!!

Went to church this morning with Bear…for the first time I witnessed 2 people being baptised ( I have only seen babies!)…with the full body emersion… I was mesmerised by the process, and very touched…. they showed much conviction and strength and faith…was very moving.

I think i need coffee…might come back in a minute…

Those stars at night…

So I am sitting in my caravan, outside the house of family, down “the Camp” (reserve) on the outskirts of Goodooga….The night sounds of crickets/cicadas….and the radio in the shed up loud…my hosts never turn it off, as it keeps snakes away due to its position against the tin of the shed and the vibrations that causes… they swear by it and I am ok with that!!!! Ain’t nobody got time for being scared of a big brown snake out here! Besides.. Poppy and Tilly, my cheeky Jack Russell offsiders, would have a great time with a snake..perhaps.

Everyone is bunked down for the night…I have just down the last doggy wee wee walk….and spent time just looking at the sky. Its oh so vast…its magnificent and I just wish I could photograph it exactly as it is…alas my talents are not at photographing the night sky.  The Milky Way is amazing..and you only seem to see it with the naked eye when you are in the outback… I always wondered how do you see it when we are technically in it? Anyway I digress.

I was looking up at the wondrous sky..the stars…and had a flashback to my teens…and the words that came into my head were “this is the sky of my childhood”…the place of and the sky under which..(not theoretically, but romantically at least!) I had my first real kiss…the many nights of walking and strolling in this place and how long ago that seems now! Like another life…another time..was it another me? Its a lovely nostalgic feeling, and its only purpose I guess is that its a happy memory. Not sure what brought it on, I have looked up at that sky many a time, as we all have.

Was a very different feeling 2 nights ago…I wrote about it on Instagram lol..but forgot to write it here…I was once again..in the caravan out of the wind and lightning as my dogs don’t like watching a storm like I do!….not much rain though..anyway, after the storm had passed, I went outside and grabbed by phone to use the camera…it looked like the night sky was arriving in the form of a cloud blanket..amazing orange beneath black…After a walk with the dogs and admiring the amazing and ever-changing sky, I went back in the van and got into bed…For the first time in 10yrs of being single…I felt lonely…not in a sad way, but in a lonesome, missing something/someone way..which is not me at all! I slept fine and was not perturbed or worried about this during the day…

It was something…both those nights…that triggered something in me…I am not pining for lost love or lovers past…nor am I looking for someone to “fill a gap”…(people always say, when you stop looking, “HE” will turn up….well, I have not been looking for a very long time!!) Ha ha! Being single has been my choice…where was I going with this anyway…oh yes…that sky!!!!

Now, what has this got to do with art…well, you see….my art (and I can only speak for me but I know its true for most)…is in response to what goes on around me, and in me…my head is a crazy swirl of stuff and that sometimes comes out on canvas….and if I can keep it up this time…in this blog.

And I finished a painting today! But thats another story.

I have gone around in circles haven’t I…well, I need to sleep..so follow that circle if you can..it will join you back up to wherever you need to be 🙂

How did I get to here….

Lets take it back to January – I said I was going to sell the house…go on an adventure

Well…that was the plan…then I got a bit sick…couldn’t use one arm…had a couple of falls…soooo tired…. soooo much pain….tingling, numbness and cold….couldn’t function let alone work as a community RN…tests upon tests, scans, bloods, nerve testing, naturopath, acupuncture……. good news it was not MS…bad news…don’t know what it is…good news…you should get better…lets do more tests though..

…lots of time off work, put the sale of the house off for a while as I couldn’t prepare for sale…ran up some debts with my parents as had no income and had run out of sick leave….

…. lots of rest and TLC from my mum… cut out sugar and gluten…started improving… I went back to work for a 5hr days x3/week… then increased that to 3x full days per week….I never went back full time…I couldn’t stay awake…

Put my house on the market, sold it and moved into a town house…in June. Left my full time nursing position and transferred it to casual…in June. Big month was June…don’t do things in an uncomplicated manner at all…..

That was far too long between blog posts! Caravan! Artist Life! Lots to tell!

Absolutely ridiculous about the length of time since I last blogged. For someone who likes to tell stories its unforgivable!

Right now…I am sitting in Dolly the Freedom Caravan… who is towed by Aragon the Trusty Ford Ranger …and I am in Goodooga, NSW…for a week of painting and connecting to country…before Dad and I head off to practice some more bump in/bump outs with the caravan!

I have been doing a lot of different paintings…mixed media, dabbling in watercolours, playing with painting on silk…so much going on in my head!!!!

Why am I out in Goodooga? When did I buy a caravan? A 4WD? What about my nursing job?

This can be one of those movie type deals…I will rewind back a few months…tomorrow 🙂 IMG_2911.JPG r:s

 

Pathways…let me tell you about mine…